2.1 — The First Time He Was Ever Angry

"Tell me something," Vaelira said, and the shift in her tone pulled every eye on the balcony toward her, even Wren's, even from the doorway. "Does anyone here know when Eremos was truly angry for the first time?"

The silence that followed was not empty. It was full of women quietly searching their own memories.

"I've seen him angry," Elowen offered, slowly. "Once. When the household first took in that awful merchant who tried to cheat Wren out of a debt. He didn't shout. He just went very, very still, and the room got cold, and I decided I never wanted to see that particular stillness aimed at anyone I loved."

"That's not anger," Vaelira said. "That's restraint doing its job well. I mean the first time it wasn't restrained. The first time something in him actually broke."

"I've never seen him break," Vesalia said quietly — the first thing she'd offered all evening, her voice low and even. "I've seen him grieve. I've seen him carry things he didn't want to set down. But break — no. Not once, in all the years I've known him."

"I haven't either," Flora admitted, a little uncertain, glancing between the others as though checking whether her answer counted. "He's always so careful. Even when he's sad, he's careful. He picks his words like he's afraid one of them might cut something."

"That's rather the point," Vaelira said. "He is careful. Every single time any of you have seen a flicker of temper in him, it's been the careful version — the version that has already decided, before it lets you see anything at all, exactly how much of itself it's willing to show you." She tilted her head, and for a moment the lazy theater dropped entirely out of her, leaving something older and more serious underneath. "None of you have met the version that isn't careful. I have. Once. And I am fairly certain, having turned the question over more than I'd like to admit, that it was also the first time it ever happened at all."

Ilyrisse's hand, still resting at Vaelira's hip, went very still.

"You've never told me this," she said.

"I've never told anyone this," Vaelira said. "I've had centuries to decide whether it's mine to tell, and I keep deciding it isn't, and then deciding it is, and then not telling it anyway. But you're all sitting here calling this woman Mother and asking her to hand you a piece of her son she doesn't have, and I find, tonight, that I'd rather give you one of mine instead."

"Is it a happy story?" Flora asked, hopeful in the particular guileless way that made everyone in the household go quiet and careful around her.

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Vaelira looked at her for a long moment, something complicated moving behind the gold-ringed eyes. "Parts of it," she said finally. "The beginning is one of the kindest things I've ever watched him do. I want you to hold onto that while I tell the rest of it. It matters that it starts kind."

2.2 — I'll Tell It, If You Give Me Something First

She let the silence stretch a beat longer than it needed to — long enough that Elowen actually opened her mouth to prompt her, and Vaelira raised one hand, unhurried, to forestall it.

"Wait," she said. "Before I start. I find myself suddenly reluctant."

"You cannot dangle that and then stop," Elowen said, scandalized.

"I absolutely can. I'm the Witch of Infinite Time. I have nowhere else to be, which means I also have no particular need to be anywhere at all, including in the middle of a story I've started telling." She examined her own nails with exaggerated disinterest, though the gold-ringed eyes gave her away, flicking sideways to gauge the room's reaction. "If I'm going to reopen something I've kept closed for this long, I think it's only fair someone offers me a little incentive."

"What sort of incentive," Ilyrisse said, in the tone of a woman who already suspected she was going to be the one paying it.

"Oh, I don't know. Something appropriately maternal. A little wine, perhaps. Someone to fetch it, so I needn't move." She let her head fall back against Ilyrisse's shoulder, entirely too pleased with herself.

It was Ilyrisse, in the end — curious despite the discomfort of the evening, and perhaps more curious than any of them, because it was her son's history being unlocked, however secondhand — who broke first.

"Fine," she said, and there was real warmth buried in the exasperation. "Wren, if you would."

Wren was already moving, unfolding from her post by the door with the easy compliance of someone who had never much minded being useful. "Wine. For the woman who fell asleep through the last four conversations she claimed to find fascinating."

"I was listening the entire time," Vaelira said, entirely unbothered. "I always am. Ask Vesalia — I know things about her childhood she's never said aloud in this castle, from listening while everyone thought I was asleep in the corner during her very first week here."

Vesalia's expression flickered — not quite alarm, something quieter and more complicated — and Vaelira, catching it, softened at once, reaching to pat the air near her without ever actually breaking her sprawl in Ilyrisse's lap.

"I'll never use it against you," she said, simply. "I only keep it. The way I keep everything." She looked around the balcony once, at all of them, gathering the moment the way a conductor gathers an orchestra before the first note. "Now. Since I've been paid — or will be, the moment Wren returns — I'll tell you about the first time Eremos was ever, truly, catastrophically angry — and about the man who was, in every sense that matters, the reason he learned how to be."

Wren returned a few minutes later with a low tray — a single dark bottle, the good vintage from the castle's south cellar, and enough cups for everyone, because if the evening was going to turn toward something heavy, she had decided without being asked that no one on this balcony should sit through it with empty hands. Vaelira accepted her cup with the satisfied air of someone collecting a debt long overdue, took one unhurried sip, and began.

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