( Rhydian)

I’m strapping the second vambrace when Senna walks in without knocking.

"No," she says.

"You haven’t seen what I’m doing yet."

"I can see exactly what you’re doing." She crosses the room with the particular speed of a healer who has run out of patience and isn’t planning to find more. "You’re putting on armor over a wound that reopened yesterday."

"It’s stitched."

"It’s stitched and it will tear if you take a hit to that side, which you will, because you can’t fully rotate that shoulder yet and you know it." She stops in front of me. Looks at the buckle I’m working. "Take it off."

"Senna."

"Take it off."

I look at her. She’s small, half my size, and she’s looking at me with the specific authority of someone who has been doing this job for longer than I’ve been alive and has zero interest in negotiating with a twenty-year-old who thinks willpower substitutes for tissue regeneration.

I don’t take it off.

She makes a sound of frustration and turns and walks out, which I should probably read as a strategic retreat rather than a concession.

I keep buckling.

---

The yard is organized chaos by the time I get out there. Brennan’s voice carries across the formation, assigning positions, the senior warriors moving with the particular focus of people who’ve done this before and know exactly what the next six hours require of them. Cade is near the fence with the trainees — too young for the front line, old enough that some of them are going to push for it anyway, and I can see Brennan has positioned an experienced wolf with them specifically to manage that exact problem.

I find Elena at the war table set up in the open air.

She’s in her armor. I haven’t seen her in it before — not actually in it, fully assembled, the leather and the reinforced shoulder pieces that mark her as Alpha. She looks like someone else. Or she looks like exactly who she is and I just haven’t seen the full version of it.

She looks up. Sees me. Sees the vambraces.

Her face does something controlled.

"Second line," she says.

"I know."

"You’re in armor for second line?"

"I’m in armor because I’m not standing in front of a hundred wolves in a shirt."

She comes around the table. Close. Her eyes do a fast assessment — the same one Senna did, the clinical sweep, checking the bandaging visible at the gap of the armor, the way I’m standing.

"Move your left arm," she says.

I move it. It costs something. I don’t let it show on my face but she’s not watching my face, she’s watching the actual movement, and her jaw tightens.

"That’s not full rotation," she says.

"It’s enough rotation."

"For what."

"For holding a position. I’m not running drills, Elena, I’m standing in the second line with a weapon."

"You can barely lift that arm above your shoulder."

"I can lift it enough."

She looks at me. The morning is cold and the yard is full of wolves preparing and somewhere east a hundred Shadowpine fighters are three hours closer than they were an hour ago, and we’re standing here having an argument about my shoulder.

"I’m not staying in that room," I say. Quieter now. "I told you that this morning."

"I heard you."

"Then you know I’m not changing my mind."

"I know you’re not." She crosses her arms. "I also know what happens if that stitching tears mid-fight. You lose blood fast, faster than last time because your body hasn’t recovered the reserves. You go down. Someone has to pull you out, which means someone who should be fighting is instead carrying you, which means a gap opens somewhere it shouldn’t." She holds my gaze. "I’ve done this math, Rhydian. I do this math for every wolf in this yard."

"I’m not every wolf."

"No," she says. "You’re the one I can’t replace."

That lands somewhere specific. I feel it land.

"Which is exactly why I need you whole," she continues. "Not heroic. Whole. I need you alive and functional in three weeks, in three months, in three years. Not bleeding out at the second line because you couldn’t sit still for one engagement."

"I can’t sit in that room while—"

"You don’t have to sit in the room."

I look at her.

"You can be useful," she says. "Just not on the line." She looks past me, toward the gate, the calculation visibly moving behind her eyes. "I need someone running the internal perimeter. Coordinating the noncombatants, the runners, making sure information moves correctly between the war table and the formation. That’s not nothing, Rhydian. That’s structural."

"That’s not fighting."

"I know it’s not fighting." Her voice sharpens. "I need it done anyway, and I need it done by someone I trust completely, and that’s you whether the position involves a sword or not."

I look at the yard. At the formation taking shape. At Brennan directing wolves into position with the calm authority of someone who has run this exact scenario in his head a hundred times.

I want to be in that line.

It’s not noble, exactly. It’s not even entirely about her, or the baby, or any of the things that would make it a good story. Some of it is just — I spent four years being the only thing standing between myself and whatever wanted to take what little I had, and the instinct doesn’t turn off because the stakes changed shape. The instinct says: get in front of the threat. Be the wall.

"I need you alive," Elena says. Quieter now. "More than I need you brave."

I look at her.

"Senna says the stitches need four more days," she says. "Four days, Rhydian. That’s not a long time."

"It’s a long time when there’s a war happening."

"It’s the time your body needs regardless of the war." She steps closer. "If you tear that open today you’re looking at two weeks instead of four days. Maybe complications. Maybe something Senna can’t fix as easily the second time."

I don’t answer.

"I am asking you," she says, "as your Alpha and as the mother of your child and as the woman who held you in a frozen camp two days ago and didn’t know if you’d stay conscious long enough to get home—" Her voice catches, just slightly, the first crack in the composure since I came outside. "I’m asking you to take the position I’m giving you. Not the line."

The yard is loud around us. Brennan’s voice. The clatter of weapons being checked. Somewhere a wolf laughing nervously at something that isn’t funny.

I look at her face.

At what’s underneath the Alpha posture, the thing she doesn’t usually let show in the yard, in front of everyone, but is letting show now because apparently this is worth the cost of showing it.

"Okay," I say.

She blinks. "Okay?"

"I’ll run the internal perimeter."

Something in her shoulders drops by a fraction.

"But Elena." I hold her gaze. "If the line breaks. If they get through to the inner settlement. I’m not standing in a corridor coordinating runners while you’re fighting on the wall."

She’s quiet for a moment.

"If the line breaks," she says, "we’re all fighting regardless of position."

"Then that’s the agreement."

She nods.

We hold each other’s gaze for one more second — the kind of look that does a lot of work in very little time, that says everything neither of us has time to say right now — and then she turns back to the war table and I go to find Brennan to get my position confirmed.

---

It’s not until that night, after the scouts confirm Marcus’s force has made camp three miles out and won’t move again before dawn, after the war table briefing ends and the immediate adrenaline drains into the slower exhausted kind, that Elena follows me back to our room and shuts the door behind her with a specific finality.

"Sit," she says.

I sit on the edge of the bed.

She crosses to the small chest by the wardrobe and comes back with strips of cloth — the kind Senna uses for bandaging, except she’s not bandaging anything, she’s wrapping one strip around my wrist and tying it to the bedframe.

"What are you doing," I say.

"You will heal first," she says, working the second wrist. "That’s an order."

"Elena—"

"You agreed to the internal perimeter. You’re staying on it. And tonight you’re sleeping flat, on your back, without arguing." She finishes the second knot. Sits back. Looks at me with an expression that is somehow both completely serious and slightly daring me to test it.

"This is excessive," I say.

"This is necessary." She climbs onto the bed beside me. Settles against the pillow. "Four days, Rhydian."

I look at the cloth around my wrists. Loose enough not to hurt. Tight enough to mean something.

I look at her.

"Fine," I say. "Four days."

She turns off the lamp.

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