(Rhydian)
A year changes things.
Not everything. Some things stay exactly where you put them — the ceiling crack, the wolf toy in the crib that Luna had chewed on at four months and now regarded with the proprietary affection of someone who has decided an object is hers. The fire that needed tending. The way Elena looked at the window when she was thinking about something that hadn’t found words yet.
But a year changes enough.
Luna was thirteen months old and walking.
That had happened three weeks ago — one step, two steps, the third one accompanied by a sound of personal triumph that had woken Brennan in the next corridor and brought Cade sprinting from the yard. She’d looked at everyone’s reaction with the expression of someone who had known this was coming and was waiting to see if the rest of us had caught up.
Elena had laughed.
The real laugh, the helpless one, the one I’d been collecting since the training yard a year and a half ago.
I thought about that sometimes. About all the versions of the laugh I’d managed to accumulate. The filing of them, the private inventory. It had started as something I was tracking the way I tracked everything — cataloguing, measuring, the four-years-alone habit of noting what was in the environment. Now it was just the thing I did when she laughed, which was register it, which was store it somewhere specific, which was feel it land.
Some habits you keep.
Elena was in full Alpha form.
That was the phrase Brennan used at the six-month mark after Luna’s birth — *full Alpha form* — and he said it with the specific relief of someone who had been managing upward for a while and had found the ground level out. She’d been back at full capacity at three months. By four months she’d been running sessions at the pace that had been her pace before the pregnancy. By six months Brennan had stopped adjusting his briefings and started giving her everything again without editing.
I’d watched it happen.
I watched everything when it came to her. Still. Probably always would.
What I watched at six months was different from what I’d watched at three months, which was different from what I’d watched at one month, which was different from what I’d watched that first night in the infirmary when the contractions were three minutes apart and she was breathing through them in the chair and saying she was fine.
She was back.
Not the same as before — better than before, which she would dispute and which was true. She moved through the settlement with the specific quality of someone who knew exactly what they were capable of because they’d been tested by things that had no clean edges and had come through it standing.
I’d told her once, in the early weeks, that she was extraordinary.
She’d told me to stop being sentimental.
She was extraordinary.
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The sparring was her idea.
She came to the morning drills on a Tuesday three weeks after Luna walked, which was not unusual — she’d been attending the drills since month four, watching, occasionally offering corrections that Cade received with the specific gratitude of someone who had been waiting for the notes. But this Tuesday she didn’t stop at the fence.
She came into the yard.
Cade saw her first. He straightened — they all did, the trainees — and there was a beat of recalibration while everyone decided what the appropriate response was.
"Alpha," Cade said. "We’re on the second sequence."
"I know," she said. "I’ve been watching." She looked at me. "I want a spar."
I looked at her.
"With me," she said.
"I understood that part," I said.
"And?" she said.
"I’m running the drills," I said.
"Cade can run the drills," she said.
Cade straightened even further. He was seventeen months older than the Cade who had called me a name in this yard, and he ran drills without being asked and adjusted the formations correctly and had taken two corrections from me in the last week with the quiet focus of someone genuinely trying to get it right.
"Cade," I said, "can you—"
"Already on it," Cade said. He turned to the formation before I finished asking.
I looked at Elena.
She was already in the center of the yard. She’d dropped her outer coat on the fence rail. Her hair was pulled back. Her jaw had the set it had when she’d decided something and was seeing it through.
I came into the yard.
We faced each other.
The trainees had stopped their sequence and were watching. I noticed this and made a mental note that someone should deal with it and also that the someone was not going to be me right now.
"You’re going easy if you go easy," she said.
"I know," I said.
"I mean it," she said.
"I know that too," I said.
She moved first.
It was the way she always moved — no wasted motion, no announcement, just the thing happening. I’d sparred with her six times in the last four months, the gradual return to full contact, and each time was closer to what I’d seen in the yard before Luna was born, what I’d seen at the fence fight during the battle, what I’d watched in the training yard from the wall walk in those first weeks when I was still cataloguing instead of participating.
I blocked the first strike clean.
The second one she changed mid-motion, which was a thing she did that I’d mapped and still sometimes didn’t catch in time. I caught it this time. She reset fast.
"Good," she said.
"You changed the angle," I said.
"I always change the angle," she said.
"I know," I said. "I’m getting better at reading it."
She looked at me.
Then she came again.
We worked through it. Properly, not the careful version, the full-weight version with the actual footwork and the real consequences for missed reads. I was careful about one thing: the left side. I’d been careful about Elena’s left side since the blade at the gate fight and the scar it had left, which she said didn’t affect the rotation and which affected it by two percent, which was two percent I was aware of and she was aware that I was aware of and we’d had exactly one conversation about it where she’d told me not to compensate and I’d told her I understood and we’d both known I was going to compensate.
She compensated for my shoulder.
We compensated for each other.
That was just the arrangement.
Twelve minutes in she caught me with a sequence I hadn’t seen from her before. New. Something she’d been working on — the footwork in the third step was different from her standard, the weight came down in a place that shifted the angle on the follow-through, and I read it wrong and my elbow went the wrong direction and she was inside my guard.
She hit the ground almost simultaneously with me and we went down together, the specific controlled fall of two wolves who know how to land, and when we stopped she had my arm pinned at the angle that was the pin.
I stayed still.
She looked down at me.
Both of us breathing hard. The yard was completely silent — I was aware of this somewhere in my peripheral processing.
"Good sequence," I said.
"I’ve been working on it for three weeks," she said.
"I noticed the third step," I said. "Didn’t catch it fast enough."
"The third step is the one," she said. "That’s where the angle changes."
"I know now," I said.
She held the pin.
I looked up at her. She looked down at me. We were at the specific distance that was very close and also a yard full of wolves watching, and her hair had come partly loose, and she was breathing hard, and her grip on my arm was exactly the grip it needed to be.
"Yield," she said.
"Yield," I said.
She released.
Neither of us moved for exactly one second.
Then she stood and I stood and she looked at the yard and whatever was on her face settled back into the Alpha expression, which I’d stopped being able to call the mask because it wasn’t a mask, it was just one of the faces.
Cade’s voice from somewhere: "That was the third step? I’ve been missing that—"
"Yes," she said, to the yard, not looking at him. "The third step is where the weight shifts. If you’re watching the second step you’re already late."
The trainees started talking.
She turned back to me.
"Again?" she said.
"You just pinned me," I said.
"I know," she said. "Again?"
I looked at her.
She looked back with the grey eyes and the jaw and the specific expression of someone who had just won something and was not done.
"Give me two minutes," I said.
"You have ninety seconds," she said.
"Elena—"
"Ninety seconds," she said. "The ground isn’t that cold."
I looked at the ground.
The ground was, in fact, cold.
"Ninety seconds," I said.
She turned to Cade and started talking about the third step and I stood in the yard and breathed and watched her, which was the thing I did, which was the thing I would probably always do.
Cade was demonstrating something badly. She corrected him. He tried again. She made a sound that wasn’t quite approval but was in that direction.
He tried a third time and she said *yes, that,* and Cade did the thing where he didn’t react but you could tell he wanted to.
"Ninety seconds," she said, without looking at me.
I came back into the center of the yard.
She turned.
We faced each other again.
"You’re going to try to counter the third step," she said.
"Yes," I said.
"You won’t," she said.
"Probably not the first time," I said. "But eventually."
She almost smiled.
"Eventually," she agreed.
She moved.
I moved with her.
The yard was loud again — the trainees back in their sequence, Cade calling positions, the settlement doing its morning around us. The gate check. The kitchen fires. Luna somewhere in the Pack house with Hanna, probably awake, probably already opinionated about the morning.
And Elena in the yard with her hair coming loose and her footwork clean and the third step that I was going to learn before the end of the week because I was not going to get pinned twice.
We were six exchanges in when she got inside my guard again.
Different angle this time. Not the third step — I’d been watching for it and she’d known I was watching for it and she’d gone somewhere else entirely.
Down again. The pin again.
This time she was close enough that her breath was on my face.
"Still the brat’s queen," she said.
I looked up at her.
The yard heard it.
Cade made a sound that he immediately tried to take back.
I looked at Elena’s face. At the grey eyes and the scar and the jaw that our daughter had inherited and the specific expression she wore when she’d said something she was entirely unapologetic about.
"Yield," I said.
"I know," she said.
She didn’t move.
I didn’t move.
"I’m going to learn the third step," I said.
"I know," she said.
"And then the alternative you just used," I said.
"Yes," she said.
"And then—"
"And then I’ll find something else," she said. "That’s how this works."
I looked at her.
"Good," I said.
She released the pin and stood.
I stood.
The yard was watching and the yard was going to keep watching and I didn’t care about the yard.
I looked at her.
"Rematch," I said.
"Now?" she said.
"Now," I said.
She looked at me with the expression that was the morning face and the Alpha face at the same time, which had started happening more often in the last few months, the two of them occupying the same space.
"You yield twice in one morning," she said, "and you want to go again."
"I yield twice in one morning," I said, "and I want to go until I don’t."
She looked at the yard.
At Cade, who had the formation moving again and was pretending he wasn’t listening.
At the gate, where the morning rotation was doing its check.
At me.
"One more," she said.
We went again.
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