[VRMMO] Chaos Doctor

Chapter 578: Chapter 578 – Amethyst - Part 4.

[You have logged into the chosen game: Unwritten Tale Online.]

[Welcome back: Sengen]

"..."

*sigh*

(I’m free?) – thought Sengen as she looked at the into the sky.

(The Greed guild contract that bound me is no longer holding me... I’m free player once again.)

"..."

"But what not?" – said Sengen to herself as she started wondering through the streets that were filled to the brim with all sorts of people.

(I mean... It is good that I’m free once again... But what do I do?)

(Should I... Should I try again at restoring the Amethyst guild?)

(This equipment can be still used for some time, I can also start gathering up money once again!)

(YES! I HAVE A CHANCE AGAIN! ALL I HAVE TO DO IS RECRUIT-)

"..."

"Recruit... Huh?" – said Sengen as she stopped in tracks.

(...)

(Let’s face it.)

(There is no way I can restore the Amethyst guild all on my own.)

(The reason why the Amethyst guild worked in the first place was because of our combined effort... But those who "helped me"... Had either back stabbed me or just abandoned me.) – thought Sengen as the people were bumping into her... But she didn’t reacted at all to it.

(What if the people I would recruit... Wouldn’t they just do the same thing to me?)

(Was I...)

"..."

(Was I even worthy of the guild master position?)

(Was it... No.)

(It was my fault.)

(I didn’t noticed these bastards scheming behind my back, which resulted in our guild destruction.)

(The sheer thought of being betrayed had not even crossed my mind once.) – thought Sengen as she looked ahead and saw a gate.

"..."

She started walking once again, heading straight towards the gate... And then leaving the city all together.

As for her destination? She didn’t knew it herself.

She just walked forward, aimlessly.

"It was my fault?"

"Everything... From start to finish was my fault?"

"..."

"Did... Did they betrayed me, because I was unfit to be a role guild master?"

"If somebody else would end up as a guild master... Would the Amethyst guild would had survived to this day?"

"..."

"Then why the hell am I even playing this game for?" – said Sengen to herself as she stared at her own shadow... Seeing it in nothing more than failures.

Her getting scammed by the Greed guild.

Her not realizing that the enemies were already inside of the guild.

Her being unable to handle all the guild work on her own.

Her making stupid decision in order to revive the Amethyst guild.

She saw it all in her own shadow.

Her own reflection.

A failure.

"..."

"Yeah... That is enough." – said the Sengen with lifeless expression on her face.

"There is no point anymore." – said Amethyst as she opened up her menu and tried logging out.

(There is no point in playing this shitty game anymore... Yeah...)

(I should just delete this-)

"I’ve said it straight."

"Loyalty."

"This is the only repayment that you need to give us back."

"..."

"Why?" – said Sengen to herself as she stopped herself from logging off, while remembering the words spoken by Thanatos.

(I was straight up somebody in the past and only in the PAST!)

(And now? I’m just nobody.)

(If anything, those who remembers my name just laugh at me.)

(I’m the biggest clown in this whole stupid game... So why the fuck are they trying to recruit ME?!)

(ME OF ALL THE PEOPLE!)

(And she speaks of fucking loyalty?!)

(LOYALTY?!)

(THE SAME FUCKING STUPID CRAP THAT BETRAYED ME AND STRAIGHT UP MURDERED EVERYTHING I’VE HAD?!)

(They want ME to give them my LOYALTY?!)

"...They didn’t made me sign any contract or anything... I paid off the debt with this stupid fucking money they gave me... They gave me TRUST?!"

(I can walk away... They don’t know who I’m or anything in real life.)

(All I have to do is quit and delete this character and it will be all over.)

(Yes... I can just walk out of that hell and that will be truly the end of the story.)

"..."

"..."

"A....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!"

"FUCK ME!"

[You have sent message to the player Thanatos.]

["I want to meet up."] – Sengen.

(WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?!)

[Sometime later: Mountain zone near the Tri City.]

"..."

"You came?" – said Thanatos as she emerged from the shadows as the lone woman in the cloak appeared.

"I was honestly thinking that you were about to ditch me, since it took you so long to get here."

"..."

"I’m here." – said Sengen as she took off her hood.

"And?" – replied Thanatos.

"The fact that you are contacting me and wanting to do face to face meeting means one thing."

"You are interested in joining our side."

"..."

"No... Not... Yet... I don’t know right now." – replied Sengen while not looking in Thanatos’s eyes.

"Just... Answer me."

"Why?"

"Why me?"

"..."

"I think you should be asking that question yourself." – said Thanatos as she approached Sengen.

"Look at me!" – said Thanatos as she grabbed Sengen by her lower jaw and forced her to look directly into Thanatos’s eyes.

"Why are you playing this game?"

"W-what?" – replied confused Sengen.

"Let me give you a fucking answer straight." – said Thanatos.

"FUN!"

"THIS IS THE MOST SIMPLEST ASNWER TO THIS QUESTION!"

"Everybody play this game for their own enjoyment!"

"Some play to relax!"

"Some play to face challenges!"

"And some just play it to earn some real-life money!"

"But! No matter what! The reason why they started this playing at first was always fun!"

"Sometimes people got their own idea of fun."

"Or they just obtain their own goal."

"Some people want to be famous."

"Some want to play the hero of justice."

"Some wants to be champions of their own nation!"

"And while fulfilling their goal? They are having sense of enjoyment, fulfillment and what not!"

"Then tell me right now in the face! Why did you started playing this game?"

"..."

"Fun... I wanted to have fun." – said Sengen.

"Then what about your guild? Did you made it your goal?" – asked Thanatos.

"...Yes... I-"

"Tell me straight, was it also because of a fun? Or you gave yourself a challenge?" – said Thanatos before Sengen could even have her own reply.

"..."

"At first... It was... Fun... I just wanted to have fun with people I’ve met here." – said Sengen as she started remembering her past, how clumsy and useless her guild was when it was born.

"...Then tell me this. Was it fun? When the guild was made?" – asked Thanatos.

"...It was...." – replied Sengen as she remembered that even when the guild struggle at the start, she and her friends didn’t gave up, in fact, they enjoyed challenge of building up her guild.

"...I can already picture it." - said Thanatos.

"You wanted to have more fun; you wanted to have more challenge... And most importantly, you wanted to become somebody."

"I don’t know if it was on the whim or it was decided together, or some other crap."

"The fact is that it was your guild decision."

"And you did it."

"You reached the top."

"You were happy! You were having fun!"

"..."

"But then that happiness ended."

"And the guild you had built, your joy, it was completely destroyed."

"..."

"TCH!" – Sengen freed her face.

"SO WHAT!?"

"I’VE LOST! OKAY!? I ADMIT IT THAT I’VE-"

"Then why are you still playing?" – asked Thanatos, catching Sengen completely off guard.

"Your history is well known."

"You have tried in desperation to revive your guild."

"But why were you trying to do that?"

"Out of pride?"

"Or did you just wanted to have the old fun you once had?"

"If anything, it could be truly both."

"..."

"What are you getting here at?" – said Sengen as her poker face was shattering completely, resulting in her not being able to hide her anxiety any longer.

"FUCKING TELL ME!" – shouted Thanatos right Sengen face.

"What is that you want?!"

"Despise losing everything! Losing everybody around you! You still played this stupid fucking game!"

"Why?"

"..."

"I just... Didn’t knew... What to do." – said Sengen as she looked at the ground.

"I just wanted... To be all like it was before."

"..."

"But there is no way that can be possible." – said Thanatos.

"You are beyond messed up."

"I’ve looked up that Greed guild and they are indeed fucking scums."

"And yet? They easily fooled you and made you their debt slave."

"With your current state, it will be never possible for you to create ever another real guild."

"So what? Are you telling me to just give up?!" – asked Sengen as her fist trembled with rage... But this rage wasn’t directed Thanatos, but instead at her very own shadow which was mocking her.

"..."

"Tell me this." – said Thanatos.

"Do you truly need your own guild to have fun?"

"..."

"Eh?" – Sengen hands stopped trembling as she slowly lifted up her head upwards, facing Thanatos out of her own free will.

"W-what... What did you just said?"

"I’ve said what I’ve said." – replied Thanatos.

"Do you truly need your own guild to have fun here?"

"Do you truly need to be a famous hero?"

"A champion?"

"Or some other shit?"

"Do you truly believe that is only idea of having fun?"

"..."

"Are you telling me to be a fucking villain? So, I can just enjoy myself?" – asked Sengen as she glared at Thanatos.

"No." – replied Thanatos.

"I’m telling you that you should be free."

"You are the only one who can tell you on how to have fun."

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