Public opinion toward Kang Hyukwoo and the speculation about the ‘similarities between Han Seungbeom and Seo Yutae‘ was shifting in the direction I had hoped for, but that didn’t mean the issue of my health could be brushed aside so easily.
Despite the broadcasting station’s attempts to take them down, videos of me falling off the stage kept being uploaded with titles like ‘Han Seungbeom Faints‘ and ‘Han Seungbeom Live Broadcast Accident‘. As a result, speculation ran wild: was it an electric shock from my in-ear monitor? A panic attack? Vasovagal syncope? Or just a simple accident? All sorts of unconfirmed stories were circulating.
Seeing that, my worried fans naturally wanted to know exactly what part of me was hurt, how it happened, and how serious it was. Through a coordinated hashtag campaign, they kept pressuring the agency, which had been trying to remain silent.
[#POX_Release_Update_on_HanSeungbeom’s_Health]
In response to the fans’ feedback, the agency asked me to tell them the exact cause of what had happened to me so they could release a proper official statement.
It wasn’t the familiar faces from the A&R team, with whom I’d built a decent rapport during our comeback preparations, but rather a bunch of staff I’d never even seen before who came rushing in.
“Would you be able to share the medical report from the hospital? I think letting fans know the cause of the collapse would help put their minds at ease. It’s also important for the company to understand your condition properly so we can prevent something like this from happening again.”
They seemed to want to explain my condition in the simplest terms possible by disclosing the medical diagnosis. I even got the sense that, deep down, they were hoping it would be something that looked serious enough to gain sympathy but wouldn’t really interfere with my activities. Of course, that was just my own suspicion, nothing I could say for certain.
‘There needs to be a clear cause so that the fans and the broadcasting staff can understand and accept it more easily…….’
At that, I was momentarily at a loss for words and couldn’t bring myself to answer right away.
I completely understood their position and genuinely wanted to do my best to help sort out the mess, but the words just wouldn’t come out.
To put it simply, the reason was that I myself didn’t know why it had happened. I was treated for bruises at the hospital, but the cause of my collapse wasn’t mentioned in the diagnosis, and I had no idea how I was supposed to explain it.
“…….”
Why did I fall off the stage?
What the hell was wrong with me…….
“…It was just that I misstepped and fell. I’ll be more careful next time. I’m sorry.”
In the end, without ever finding the real answer to that question, I spoke of the issue that seemed like it would be the simplest to resolve.
[(Notice) Update on Pantheion’s Han Seungbeom’s Health (ENG/JPN/CHN)]
Hello, this is POX Entertainment.
We apologize for the delay in our response as we took time to accurately assess the situation. We would now like to provide an update regarding the health of Pantheion’s Han Seungbeom.
The agency eventually stated that my collapse on stage was simply due to a misstep, and firmly announced that Pantheion’s last promotions would proceed without issue. While a few people questioned the explanation and presented counterarguments based on various evidence, most chose to trust the official statement, assuming it had been verified with me directly.
— Thank goodness it’s nothing serious ㅠㅠㅠ I was about to die from worrying
— He said he’s fine, so let’s just take his word for it. No need to waste energy overthinking and jumping to conclusions. Disperse!~!~!~
— Clean the stage floor properly, you jerks at the broadcasting station, make sure our kid doesn’t fall again!
If possible, I wanted to show only my genuine self to the fans, so I couldn’t help but feel guilty, like I had become a liar. But I couldn’t tell the truth, because the sudden decline in my condition before the live broadcast was closely tied to the fans.
…It would’ve felt too much like I was blaming the fans.
‘With Kang Hyukwoo involved, the situation was bound to end up like that.’
I could’ve gone from hospital to hospital trying to get to the bottom of it, and maybe I would’ve found an answer … but I didn’t want to.
Even now, I was vaguely aware that the problems I was carrying had reached a point beyond what I could handle on my own. That’s why I was desperately pretending everything was fine, like trying to stay calm while holding a bomb about to explode. But I had the feeling that if any of it were to be exposed against my will, that’s when I would start to fall apart. Just like I did back then, when I had to rely on Choi Jeokhyeon to get by.
‘I have to do well, I have to make sure I don’t disappoint them again…….’
I wanted to show only the good side of myself.
I wanted to be a trouble-free person, someone who didn’t cause worry or exhaustion. Even if that wasn’t the truth.
“And this week’s first place is!”
“Pantheion, congratulations!”
Just like that, Pantheion’s last promotions resumed, and concluded with great success.
With the live broadcast incident and Kang Hyukwoo’s scandal unintentionally drawing public attention to Pantheion’s last comeback, we shone brighter than ever. After the agency released its official statement, I carefully crafted a calm expression and a confident attitude, as if nothing had happened, and just like that, all the controversy quietly disappeared.
As the stage is undoubtedly the most defining element of an idol’s identity, delivering a standout performance on it was enough to silence both the controversy over my condition and the debate over originality.
— Han Seungbeom is seriously talented. He’s insanely talented
— Now it’s honestly laughable that people tried to bash him for imitating Seo Yutae. Their dance lines aren’t similar at all. Seo Yutae dances with a heavy, groovy feel, while Han Seungbeom is fluid and delicate. They each dance in a way that perfectly suits their own body type, so how is that imitating?
— Han Seungbeom’s dance break in the music video is the most replayed scene for me hahaha guess we’re all the same, huh
— It feels like Pantheion’s members have grown rapidly ever since meeting Han Seungbeom. Back when SI4 first came out, they still had a slightly amateurish vibe, but now they flawlessly handle their parts like it’s second nature… Every time I watch them, I feel so proud. They’re the best. The absolute best, my strong and precious hometown
└ OMG I felt the same. Seungbeom used to go around correcting each member during practice in their behind-the-scenes vids, but now they all just get it right on their own !!! Is this what growth tastes like? I’m actually tearing up
└ The way the leader instinctively tries to help the kids out of habit, but then just quietly smiles to himself when he sees they’ve got it handled on their own … my heart ㅠㅠ And after that, he doesn’t say a word, letting them figure things out by themselves ㅜㅜㅜ He really raised them all… he raised them well
After finishing the music show stage and heading to the next schedule, I was checking the reactions on SNS when I suddenly saw the real-time trending keywords flooded with talk about Prism.
‘They must’ve finished their performance by now.’
The last time I heard from the Prism members, they told me they’d been invited to perform at a music festival in North America. Remembering that, I quickly pieced the situation together, checked the time, and tapped on the trending keyword related to Prism.
— I’m drowning in national pride. Prism is truly a legend. I seriously wanna grab some random foreigner and go “Do you know Prism??”. I’m so freaking proud of them AAAAAHHHH.
— When Cha Woon’s mic suddenly stopped working, Yoo Jay immediately tossed him his mic in less than a second, and Cha Woon just caught it and kept singing like nothing happened. It was so cool. Their quick thinking, smooth moves, and insane teamwork were on another level
└ ㅠㅠ Why do things like this only ever happen to Woonie ㅜㅜ
└ It’s honestly wild how someone with that visual of his can be so unlucky with their hands ㅜ So freaking cute ♥… Not even worried though, I know he’ll just handle it effortlessly like always
— They didn’t even use a single live AR, just pure MR, and it still sounded exactly like the studio version;; I watched the fancam, and their vocals were so powerful they cut right through the MR… Now that’s how it’s done HAHAHA All you juniors out there, don’t even think about making excuses about how ‘raw live’ is too difficult from now on
└ But Prism always does full live performances, so I doubt that stage was much of a big deal for them lol
└ Why tho? Did Seo Yutae tell them they could only perform live?
└ Nah, it’s just that the members have insanely strong pride. They’re crazy guys who grit their teeth and perform live even if they have a cold or or the audio equipment malfunctions..
— Prism and Lee Chise’s names just went up on U.S. trending topics 😱😱 Let’s go let’s go let’s go!!
└ Lee Chise really seemed possessed by a god today
— I cried when I saw Jay doing Yutae’s opening ment for him… How proud Yutae must be if he sees that
— A foreigner asked me who the tall, handsome guy who sang the high note was, and I seriously didn’t know what to say. I mean, they’re all tall, handsome, and have high note parts, so how am I supposed to figure out who it was
— It seems like small stages just can’t contain Prism… Every time they’re on a big stage, they run around like fish in water and deliver another legendary performance
It seemed like they did a really good job on stage.
“Oh, the corners of your mouth are twitching, hyung.”
“…Be quiet.”
I wanted to call those Prism guys right away, but after performing on such a big stage, they must be completely drained of energy, so I figured it would be better to just leave them alone for now.
‘Once they’re back in Korea, I should at least treat them to a meal.’
“Hyung, could you give Prism sunbaenims a call? I’ve been sending them updates about you every ten minutes, and I’m starting to feel a bit guilty.”
“…I’m sorry.”
…Those darn rascals.
Muttering curses inwardly, I called Cha Woon right away, and the call connected before the dial tone even finished ringing once.
“Hello.”
“…Stop calling Lee Danbi. You can just ask me directly.”
As I let out a deep sigh and said that, there was a brief silence, and then I heard Cha Woon’s voice, slightly husky, as if he were still a bit drowsy.
“Sorry. I was just trying not to trigger you, hyung……”
“Trigger me? What am I, a bomb? Ready to explode if you touch me?”
There were already three guys around me who were basically walking time bombs, so being treated like one myself was just unfair. I just happened to be collapsed often because I was physically weak; compared to those guys, I was practically a saint. If anything, I was more like one of those floppy inflatable tube men at gas stations than a bomb.
“I was just worried. It’s just,you always seem kind of reluctant when we try to check in on you whenever something happens, hyung .……. If we were still working together, we could at least see each other face to face, but now we can’t, can we?”
“…….”
As the mood suddenly dropped, I quickly opened my mouth to change the subject.
“Did you do well on stage? Everyone’s saying you guys killed it.”
I asked on purpose in a playful tone, and he let out a small laugh before answering confidently:
“Of course we did. Who do you think made this group?”
“…Go get some sleep. You must be tired.”
“Ah, I can’t sleep.”
“Why not?”
“The members all decided to go to the gym together.”
“Ah, the Water Festival. Still, take it easy today and get some sleep.”
“Okay. Hyung, aren’t you working on your body … ah, never mind, that’s pointless.”
I hung up the call before Cha Woon could finish his sentence.
***
After returning to the dorm, we got ready to eat and sat down at the table. Just as I picked up my spoon, Do Yuda, who had been sitting with his head lowered, spoke up.
“I don’t want to eat.”
As soon as those words were spoken, Woo Kangwon dropped his spoon, Baek Kiryang covered his mouth, and Lee Hwayoung’s eyes widened in shock. Lee Danbi shot up from his seat and started looking for the manager. Only Do Yuda’s best friend, Pat, continued calmly slurping noodles with an unfazed expression.
In the unprecedented event of that Do Yuda refusing to eat, I immediately placed my hand on his forehead and asked.
“Are you sick?! Should I call an ambulance?”
“I’m not…….”
“Don’t lie! Unless you’re seriously ill, there’s no way you’d skip a meal.”
“I need to watch my diet if I’m going to show off my abs at the Water Festival.”
A silence fell over the room.
And soon after, only Woo Kangwon’s trembling voice echoed through, sounding pitiful.
“But Yuda-ya, the Water Festival is the day after tomorrow……”
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Translator’s Corner:
Only 10 days left in June and there’s still 11 chapters for this arc … I need to finish this arc in June … I can do this….
Lately I’ve been watching “Our Unwritten Seoul”, a new drama, and it’s really good. If you guys like slice-of-life romance and have free time, I really recommend it. The drama makes me less depressed but at the same time it also makes me want to redo my whole childhood and school life because WHERE IS MY HOSU !!! I’m giggling blushing kicking my feet everytime they showed flashback school-life scene
Ah, also, last week there’s a viral post in Korean twitter about Ghost Story English (fan)title (they’re discovering AO3), and it kinda sparked the witch hunt among intl readers for people who called the work as “GSGW”. Yes, they’re fighting about the acronyms again …. (I honestly don’t see the reason why people are so quick on “If you use this title, you must be illegal readers!” judgement, because honestly if you translate the title to google translate, it would still give you a long title that can be shortened to GSGW….). But I guess they inherited the intl DoD fandom ……. if any of you are stacking up the fan-translations chapters, I suggest you guys read them asap …. people are straight up sending the tl links on twitter and tiktok, and to the Korean readers no less.
Cross my heart and wish Yutae will stay nugu for a bit longer …. I really don’t think I could handle seeing people talking “if you use this title, I’ll block you” about this series …. this is why sometimes translating rofan is much more peaceful …. the intl readers for BL and bromance genre are sometimes … too eager to report people …. like getting burned at the stake because the hired hunter just did their job and hunted you is one thing, but getting burned because people actively reported you to the hunter would feel like getting betrayed by humanity…..
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