[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper

Chapter 310: Grim Reaper And Human

What surprised No. 444 even more was that after another few days, she went to them and said that she is willing to leave with them.

He was really dumbfounded by those words. She hasn’t even said what was her last wish yet, how could it be? What about her son? What about Xiaoyuan?

He hasn’t done anything yet either! Perhaps the confusion on his face was very visible when the devil finally spoke. "Are you wondering why?"

He didn’t hesitate and nod. "Why?"

"Do you know why grim reapers exist?" Instead, Yin asked him another question.

He frowns but answers anyway. "Because souls need us. We are their guide to their afterlife. Whether it is to send them for the consequences or for the second life they’ll have."

Yin nodded. "That’s it?"

That’s it? Si tilted his head in confusion. Was that it? Was that the role of a grim reaper?

"And to fight against dark energy and entities." He added after a second but the devil looked at him as if it was not enough.

"...." Unfortunately, he couldn’t come up with an answer anymore.

"Grim reapers are the instrument for souls to leave without any regrets inside their heart." Yin answered anyway after his silence. "You are not just a guide but also someone who fulfills a wish. That is why the Judge wants you to understand humans and their hearts."

"... I don’t understand something." The familiar look of innocent ignorance flashes on Si’s eyes. "If grim reapers exist to help humans, why? How important is their existence?"

How important humans are that they have to exist to serve them even after their death?

"Because of their heart."

"What?" It was this word again. Heart, why does everyone think that word is really important? Is it really that important to have a heart?

But he doesn’t have it.

That night flashed on Si’s head. A memory when he spent a night hearing the devil’s heart. He could still remember that rhythmic beating inside the man’s chest. The devil’s body felt very cold like his, but with the organ beating inside, there was something very different that he couldn’t explain.

Somehow, it was not as hollow as he has inside.

Yin stared at the grim reaper who lowered his head blankly. It seems that no matter how he explains, he just wouldn’t understand.

Looking at him this way, he seems to understand something.

This grim reaper spent his life facing death. That world where he only knew darkness, lifelessness, and numbness. There was no other thing— not even a single tiny light. Someone who hasn’t received warmth from anyone, so how could he understand the reason?

....

He Li listened to their conversation in silence and also remembered something.

He remembers Qin An’s confusion about why he would sacrifice his own life as a soldier to save people? Was his life not that important to them?

And he also recalled the words he said.

’Humans are too complicated. Everyone has various reasons why they want to live— for themselves or for others, but they will always unite for one thing. Peace.’

’Humans can be as one to protect the peace they have. It’s the one thing that they are willing to sacrifice even their life.’

’One thing... then are there other reasons?’

’Because we are humans.’

That time, Qin An was also like this, full of confusion. He couldn’t understand that he chose to be a soldier not just for peace but also to protect his family and the people around him. He was that young man who hadn’t received any warmth from other people who he couldn’t understand everything.

Yet even so, Qin An chose a decision.

’Because I chose to be a human.’

He chose to become a human who has a heart.

He Li looked at the grim reaper. If all grim reapers have a heart, why does he not?

... Or maybe he has— he has from the start. It’s just that the grim reaper’s world is full of darkness and he has to discover it himself.

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"Grandma, don’t you want to say goodbye to them for the last time at least?" Ji asked Liu Hua but she shook her head.

"I should leave this matter to them now." She said and they knew that they couldn’t do anything now about her decision. Ji was about to signal No. 444 to send her, and they saw him shake his head lightly at the old woman.

"I think you should talk to your son first."

All were surprised by his interference. "Si?" Even Yin didn’t expect that he would say those words. After all, they expected him to accept it faster than them because it meant that his job will end successfully now.

"My son is doing alright now. I’m sure that he will always do his best to make it up for Xiaoyuan." Liu Hua smiles at the grim reaper.

"But what about you?"

She paused. "Me?"

"You told me that you knew your son’s heart. Since he is willing to make up for his regrets, then what about his regret for you?" No. 444 directly looks at the old woman. "Furthermore, do you regret death only because of Xiaoyuan’s situation? Didn’t you wait for him too?"

"...." Liu Hua went silent.

"I think you are just evading him because just like your grandson, you also felt resentment—" Si stopped his words for a second. "No, it’s not resentment because you’re not angry, you are disappointed in him for what he did."

There was a stifling silence after No. 444 didn’t hesitate to say those words. Liu Hua also stayed silent as the truth that she’s been hiding was discovered.

"Don’t you want to leave without regret? Old woman, after you follow us, you will no longer have any connection in this world— in their life. You will forget everything in this life. Leaving like this, won’t that leave regret in you?"

Liu Hua smiled bitterly at his words. It was indeed the truth. Yes, she chose to let go and trust his son. Her grandson’s life will be fine, but what about her? What about all the disappointment she felt while waiting for him? Is it really alright for her to leave like this?

It’s just that deep inside her, she just couldn’t believe that it took her death for him to come to her— to his own mother. Does her son love her? That was her last question before she closed her eyes and faced death.

And now that he came, she wants to escape because she’s very afraid that he just felt guilty or maybe he just doesn’t want to look unfilial to others.

Liu Hua is very scared that her son didn’t love her.

However, he was also right.

She wouldn’t remember a thing after this, so why hesitate?

She sighed. "... Alright."

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